I’m not really sure where I left off in my last life update but I know for sure that things have changed a lot. Before I jump into all the details, I want to mention that I am going to be replacing the ‘ work ‘ section of this series with ‘ business ‘ instead because while I was away I started a business and now I am in the process of starting up another one, so that has become a huge component of my life now.
I stopped going to school because I started to feel like I didn’t know what I wanted from it anymore. Though I didn’t write about it on my blog. I did decide that I wasn’t going to major in journalism anymore because the job market is just terrible. So I started feeling like, “Ok? So what do I do now? Why am I wasting my time and money here when I don’t even know what I’m going to do with this?”
To this day, I still agree with that thought, but, what I am disappointed about is how I left school. I simply stopped going. I lost all motivation and just stopped going to class which I regret immensely because I was only taking prerequisites (required courses for any and all majors).
Now I know what I want to major in (graphic design, lol, maybe I’ll touch on that in another post. I’m freelancing now, follow my design page on IG @jeweldesignsny) and I won’t even be able to jump right into it how I would like to because I just stopped going to all of those prerequisite classes. (Don’t be like me please.) I’ve been avoiding calling the schools (the one I was attending and the one that I was going to transfer to) because I’m afraid of what they’ll tell me and also not sure if I even want to go back right now. So that is THAT on that as far as school is concerned.
So I tend to keep this part of my life updates very vague, just for my own privacy and obviously the privacy of others. I know in one of my recent posts, “How Depression Took Over My Life for 3 Months” , I said that I had been dealing with an unexpected heartbreak. All I have to say is that I’m still dealing. Focusing on growing my current business and launching my new one has helped me keep my mind off of it. Not only has it helped keep my mind off of the hurt, it has been healing me slowly. In the post linked above, I wrote about not relying on other people for your happiness and not putting all of your eggs in one basket. I’ve been leaning on my passions to help get me through this because they are what makes ME happy; my blog, my businesses, and everything that makes me, ME. So every time I start to feel like I’m dwelling I’ll start thinking about myself. What could I be doing right now to better myself besides sulking over a boy?
When it comes to love, I love pretty hard and I have never been ashamed of that. So I try not to completely avoid how I feel because I know how important it is to go through all of the emotions (feel everything) and process it so that I’ll learn, move on in a healthy way. Because if I don’t I won’t be able to healthily love again. And I will NEVER, despite all of my heartbreaks and trust issues, close myself off to finding true love.
So while I was MIA I started my graphic design business named Jewel Designs NY. I offer different packages at very affordable rates with new entrepreneurs (like myself) in mind. The mission behind JDNY is to help entrepreneurs who really don’t have a clear idea of their vision design wise (logo, colors, fonts, etc) and to also help entrepreneurs looking to rebrand. I don’t currently have a website because I just wanted to start and see where it could go, but I don’t want to say that I regret not making a website, but maybe I should have. I set up Google Forms for clients to fill out based on the service that they want and I’ve had only two people fill them out and when I emailed them, they never got back to me, which is really annoying because it gets my hopes up. So I’ll soon be creating a website where people will have to fill out their information, pay their deposit or pay for the full service (haven’t decided that yet) right there at check out.
The second business that I am in the process of starting up is an online boutique named ‘ Flutter ‘. I’ll be selling 3D mink eyelashes, lipglosses, and accessories. I’m set to launch on August 12, 2019 and that is all I’m going to say about that because you will just have to tune in to my YouTube channel to know EVERYTHING about the process of starting up and maintaining both ‘ Flutter ‘ and ‘ Jewel Designs New York ‘.
My blog is my baby and always will be. It’s like my first born child, even when I was away I still felt connected lol. It has NEVER even crossed my mind to end my blog. I can’t because it just doesn’t make any sense. I love to write and I love to be creative so why would I? I don’t want to say I am going to be more consistent but I will definitely try.